Not a good Newsweek this week

Okay, so I'm already having a rough time with depression and beating myself up all the time. I normally love to read Newsweek. Its a great magazine. It lets me keep up with the really big stuff without having to read the front page of the Merc. But this week's issue just seemed to suck. First there's the comment that children who have mothers who suffer depression have more than their fair share of deliquency and psychotic episodes due to "receiving poor parenting." [Emphasis mine] Great. Just what I wanted to hear. My biggest fears are accurate. I am being a rotten mother.

A couple of articles later we see the comment that low energy children come from low energy parents. And that they learn that being sedentary is normal and then suffer higher rates of obestity, early onset type II diabetes, high blood pressure, and etc. Okay, so now not only am I a poor parent 'cause I suffer from depression, but the side effects of said depression (and a really tiring pregnancy) is going to make the quality of Ike life just horrible.

You know, when the depression is at its worst, in my darkest moments, I can very nearly understand Andrea Yates.

And you know, that scares the living shit outta me.

Lets hear it for Stanford!

So a couple of weeks ago I saw an ad in one of the giveaway magazines at the Y. Stanford was looking for pregnant women currently suffering depression for a study looking at the effectiveness of either acupuncture or massage in elevating depression symptoms. Coolness! I called the number. I went through a 30 minute phone interview, which I passed. Then last thursday I went through a 2.5 hour interview. Which I found out yesterday I passed! So I've been accepted for the study. Yea, now maybe something can get better.

Only downer? I can't get outside therapeutic massage as it will throw off the study. Which sucks. But free treatment is free treatment. If I can help another pregnant chick from feeling the way I'm feeling now, its a good thing.

This is toooooooo cute.

I just got this in email from a friend of mine. Its for the cat lovers out there. There are enough of us.

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